This post is actually something playing on my mind. i kust don get girls, they ask u to tok but wen u do, they will interrupt u halfway and counter wat u said so far. k i tell u, i Always make extreme decisions. but even so, i still tink b4 making tt decision. its not even that extreme. it can be considered OK.
but no my decisions are always wrong and i make seem like ure always wrong and im always rite and i c it like im always wrong and ure always rite.. bila mau game... u wan to mit ur frens, its fine, i try to ignore the irritatingness in me by:
1) i go out so tt i will tink of othr tings
2) i go out so tt u will feel wat i feel
3)i wont bring my phone wen i go out so i wont get irritated by the fact tt ure still nt cntacting me
U say that u get dissapointed wen u c i dont msg, and u keep staring at ur phone... for wat? wait for me to msg? is tt it. well if ure waiting for me to msg dont u evevn slightly c wat time it is. jgn ckp tt u tk praasan coz any tom dick or harry would have. k u say ure slow, but u have alot of time... how slow can u b tt u dont even c the time. u wan to mit ur frens, GO, i dont stop u, i don mind wat time u get home. the main thing is tt ur safe.. u say tt u always do tt and nothing has ever happend so u will cntinue... so if niting happen than u will stop la.. is tt it?
so klau g2, the incident tt happen on christmas was wen u were meeting me kn. so if i were to put ur words in this situation, u wont mit me... btol tk? as i said, the main thing is tt ure safe, u wan to stay smpai pagi pon go, its nt like u nv done tt kn... u don hf to change if u don wat to don even do niting if its jz for the sake of giving me peace of mind... i dont need it, especially from u... ya its my fault tt i keep quiet and make u irritated... but nw dn u prasan... nrmally did u ever consider wat u do... u say wat i do tk masok akal... well its wat u did... nw u noe hw ive been feeling for most of the time... 21FEB is our 2 yrs anniversarry but i feel like im attached to u for less than 1 yr... u may feel different cz ive been keeping quiet abt tings. and i will cntinue cz i don wan u to noe... mayb nt nw... mayb never... look at the situation... u told me this blog is for me to pour out my feelings... but u read it so isnt it the same as me telling u?
i get ur point cz i realise i cnt tell tis tings to u in front of ur face... but in here it will make an even greater impact dont u tink cz 1 problem will lead to another and another and another and another......... u tink i like to give u such a hard time... well i dont and i hope u wont... if u tink im giving u such a hard time wat abt me? dont u tink u give me a hard time... let me tell u, tis fri exam, i dunno aniting abt it... and tmr im going to study for i whole day... i dunnoe why i said tt but i jz felt like saying it... haiz... im nt ungkitting but i wan u to tink wat u do to me, is it equals to wat i do to u?
if its nt den tell me HONESTLY and i will bcome the stupid guy tt follows u ard like a dog and will not complain or give u a hard time anymore... wont ask for niting but i will give everyting...if tts wat u want